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I am a Roman Catholic. My brother is connected with a religious congregation. However, what they don’t know is that I have been attending mass/service from a Christian Community. Their mass is totally different. On a Catholic’s perspective, the mass is celebrated by a priest who practices celibacy. On the Christian ministry, mass is referred to as a “service” and they call priests “pastors”. My parents doesn’t know of this too.
One thing is that I don’t understand why we have to kneel then stand up then kneel again. Normally, my mind would also wander on a normal Catholic mass. I guess it must be the devil tempting me not to pay attention to the priest.
My first time going to a service was when my friend and her hubby invited me. I gladly joined them but told them not to expect anything. I even call those singing and dancing as doing the “alive, alive” thingy. But I was in for a shock that time. I realized that I liked the service. Although it took 2 hours to finish the service, I found out that this was what I was looking for. The 1st hour consist of songs for praise and worship. This one I liked. I thought that through the songs, I could communicate with God. The 2nd half of the service was spent listening to the pastor read the gospel and although boring sometimes, it makes more sense rather than listening to old priests who I think may doze off to sleep while reading their homily.
After this experience, I couldn’t wait to go back. My friends moved out of the country after some time and I found another church buddy and we hopped from church to church trying to find the best congregation that suits our taste. I never found one. Then my friend went abroad too. I long to go back to the congregation where my other friend brought me but am afraid and am not confident to go there by myself. I dunno. I’m sad.
“I’m sorry Lord if I can’t go to mass regulary. I know I’m making excuses again. Please understand me. Please help me find a church buddy who can help me get back on my feet. Or give me courage to stand on my own and stop minding others as I enter your kingdom.
You know I love you Lord. Please hold on to that. Please remember. Again, I’m sorry.”
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