i no longer know what am doing with my life. i quit my job. i guess i don’t want to think that i made the mistake of quitting my job as i know there are a lot of opportunities for me. so i don’t want to dwell on this too much.

however, it’s almost a month since i stopped working and i haven’t really accomplished anything yet. i know i should try to relax and rest for the time being but with my bills piling up each month, i can’t afford to just relax and do nothing. well, i have actually done that. i did not do anything for the 1st 2 weeks that i quit going to the office and with this came realizations such as how it is not healthy to just sit on my bed all day long. aside from my my the butt ache it will give me, it will also worsen my state of fattness. more fats get accumulated since i don’t do anything. i just eat, sit and surf. that’s it!

now, i tried to work but it seems that i can’t set my priorities straight. i find all the possible excuses in the world just for me to get away with things. i really need the money to survive but with my working habit and attitude, i don’t think i will last in this career i’m trying to build.

i just wish that everything’s perfect. everwhere i go, whatever i do, everything i touch, i wish it all turns out great. i just wish i don’t have to work. i wish i’m living the life of a rich gal and will just travel round the globe to see magnificent things. i wish i don’t have to exert all the much needed effort so that i can survive.

however hard i try to wish all of these things, i know that i can’t have it all. i know that everything’s gonna be too good to be true if that ever happens. unless of course if i marry a rich guy or win the lottery or something.

right now, am lost more than ever. i just wish i’d stop complaining and start working so that at the end of the day i can see the fruits of my labor. i just wish that i’d learn to shape up or else i’ll be really in big trouble.

am no longer a kid. i know what i need to do however am not doing it. i just wish someone would constantly hit my head to make sure i get right on track. maybe i should hire someone to do that for me – hit my head.

you’re not rich daisy! you’re not special! you’re not perfect! you’re just simple. like the rest of the people in this earth. so better stop day dreaming. move on with your life! work hard and when you pay up all your debts, then you can save up for the travels that you’ll be doing. so better shape up! or else…or else what? or else you’d end up miserable! ouch!

lost lost lost

rants rants rants

this is my cup of tea – ranting. not really appreciating what i have and make the most out of it.

i am a weird person. weird, irresponsible, angry, bitter, fat. yep. anything else you want to add? pathetic maybe. oh… loser!

*sigh*

better stop talking to myself now.

P.S. for spelling and grammar slips, i don’t care!

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