Him/Her/It
My work schedule is being compromised by someone I knew at work. I am trying to avoid the person because I’ve had enough of everything. I really don’t think we have anything in common. The person is too weird for me to understand. That’s why I make sure I don’t see “him/her/it” often.
Lately, I’ve been tagged at one of my social networking sites by the person. The title says “Memory Lane”. It says “Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn’t matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!”
I dared not reply back because honestly, I can’t think of a good memory. I know I’m too bad. But because of what happened between the two of us (which I think I’m the only person who’s aware of it) the trauma got stuck and all the good memories we’ve had together were replaced by bad ones.
I now fully understand why my 2nd ex choose to leave. I was constantly picking fights with him at that time and I don’t have any clue why. I guess our good times were overshadowed by the heartaches our fights caused which led him to give up on the relationship.
With this realization, I could really relate to what that tag was asking me to do. If I was my ex and “him/her/it” was me, I’d walk away too.
I have no idea if the person has any idea that I am trying to stay away from the group, specifically “him/her/it”. I don’t mind and I don’t care. I just feel that we will never get along well, one way or the other, in the end. It’s too sad. I’m a hypocrite actually. I’m just saying it’s sad by am not really sad. hehehe. I guess I stopped caring for the person which led to my inability to feel for anything related to her. Sad…tsk tsk tsk…
I’m just too hurt to consider being near “him/her/it” again.
They say patience is a virtue. I really believe I am the most patient person in the world when it comes to dealing with friends. “Him/Her/It” can attest to that. But patience has limitations too. Mine expired eons ago after dealing with “him/her/it”.
I could play plastic, you know. I can. As of now, I’m keeping my distance.
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