Concealed Thoughts

You told me you can’t wait to see me. You told me you’ve been staring at a video of me doing crazy stunts and have your screen zoomed out to only view me alone. I said “wtf?!?!?!?” I was embarrassed but at the same time curious why you would even do that. I never knew who you were or how you look like in person, though I’ve seen photos of you. I never knew what your personality is. I was curious but I kept my distance.

I was late. Then I met you. It was awkward. I wanted to get to know you but it seemed you were to reserved and shy to even look at me or be near me. So I kept my distance. I lent you my HeadWare so that you can use it when you slept but you didn’t use it. Instead, you wrapped it in your wrist. I got worried you may not return it back as I had no inentions of giving it to you. Am glad you returned it.

Before we parted, we shook hands. I was surprised when you held my hand tightly with both of your hands. I instantly felt something weird. Why would would a handshake involve 3 hands when it’s supposed to be 2. You held it tightly and made sure I’ll show up when you get back from your trip. That felt weird.

On your way back, you sent a text message. When we saw each other again, you were still shy and reserved. When it was decided that I should sleep over I immediately sensed the tension building up within you. I observed your moves. I know you were too tired and sleepy but you stayed up probably waiting for me to hit the sack first. But I didn’t. You got tired so you started lying down the bed mattress on the floor while the rest of the gang slept comfortably in their beds. I noticed that you were restless even as you were trying to get some sleep. I wish I didn’t cause you that agony. I wish you you were able to get a good night’s sleep.
I had to decide if I will sleep beside you or if I’d join the rest. I went with the former. I wrapped my entire body with the thermal blanket as if I was a mummy. I had to do that so that you won’t get the chance to see my ugly face when I wake up the next day. I hope I didn’t snore too loud. I hope you were able to sleep properly that night.

When you left the next day, you did it again. You held my hand with both of your hands instead of giving me a formal hand shake. Then I learned you paid for my lunch. I was very grateful for that.

You decided to come back 2 weeks after. I was expecting another handshake or a hug when you left but I didn’t. It was as if you turned a cold shoulder on me. I had to contain my disappointment. Now we’re continously talking. Our communication is affecting my job but I’d rather chat with you than earn a living.

You’d be coming back this week and I don’t know what will happen. I just know that if I won’t be careful, I might loose my heart to you. I wish I could control it. I wish I could or I’ll only be jeopardizing the barrier that I covered up myself. I wish you’d also be man enought to let me know what you feel. Well. these are just my delusions. For all I know this didn’t even existed and it was just a one-sided love affair.

I need a slight confirmation from you that tells me you like me. I wish you’d give me a sign. I wish that I’m not mistaken with these gestures you are showing me. I can do so much right now. I just hope that you’re the one I’ve long been waiting for…

Today is my 31st day of taking the Slimina weight loss capsule. I consumed my last capsule yesterday and didn’t find the chance to buy another bottle since I have no money.

Based on my observation, I believe that this product is effective. Proof? Check the photo below.

I took this photo earlier today. Today is the 1st day that I rested in drinking the Slimina weight loss capsule. If I only have the funds, I will buy one more bottle to aid my body in loosing those excess fats and weight.  Although I only lost 9lbs, this was still not an easy feat. The good thing was it didn’t prevent me from eating those yummy food I see everywhere. My guess was that my body was still trying to get to know the capsule that I have been taking for the past 30 days. Which is why I am confident that I could loose more weight on my 2nd bottle. I just jope that it won’t take too long buy another box again.

Oh, I wore my old black dress to work. Before, I’d really have a hard wearing it but now, it was seamless.

I’ll still update this site for unusual stuff we encounter at the airport.

My hectic schedule prevented me to update on my Slimina diet capsule intake on a regular basis. I got a new job so I had to adjust to my new working environment including my eating patterns. I was supposed to provide an update last June 10th but I got too sleepy already. I wanted to give an update because of this…

On Day 18, I was weighing 140lbs. 2 days after, I checked my weight and that was what came out of the scale.

Even if I promised at the start of this diet that I’d exercise often, that didn’t happen. I guess that only happened once but from that point till now, I have never engaged in any form of exercise.

The bad thing about working again is that I wasn’t able to follow the instructions carefully regarding the need for constant water intake. I had to avoid drinking water during these times since I don’t want to constantly go to the bathroom. Because of this, I believe that my weight loss didn’t progress much. I recall during the time I went down to 140 lbs was that I drank water constantly for that week, which helped in loosing my weight. Since I wasn’t drinking water often at work, I always experience that feeling of having something stuck in your throat. The ulcer attacks no longer came back though.

As for my eating habits, I still eat the usual stuff but this time, with less rice. Sometimes at work, I do not eat properly. I’d only order a half cup of rice and any dish being sold. Then I’d even give a portion of my rice to my colleague at work since I couldn’t consume it anymore. My threshold for hunger was stretched here.

The worse thing that probably happened during this week was my inability to fall asleep to sleep early. I am juggling with 2 jobs now. Because of this, I had to be awake to work on my other tasks. To make sure I can keep up with my work, I end up sleeping for only 2hrs each day the other week (July 7-12, 2011). It was really hard but the good thing is that I could just manage my sleepyead just fine and prevented my self dozing off to sleep.

Since I didn’t constantly drink water when I really need to, my bowel movement became irregular. There were times that I feel I had to go but it’s taking me forever to do it. Which is why it is really important to drink water.

Significant things that happened for the last 10 days included my jeans continuing to get loose. I already mentioned that I felt it loose on my upper thighs. But this time, even if I wear it with a belt, it tends to slide down my hips instead of being comfortable in my waist line. I noticed this since I constantly had to adjust my jeans as I kept stepping my own jeans.

Another thing was that I can still feel my shoulder shrink gradually. I could already sense it especially when I hold them and feel my bones instead of fats.

That’s me and my shoulder. Just took that photo today. Before, that shoulder was slanting and had no shape due to the fats. But this time, you could already see that curve in there indicating that I’m not gaining any weight despite constantly eating or despite the lack of water intake.

I could also feel my waist and hip bones now. Before, they were all fats and muscles in there. This time, whenever I rest my hands on my hips, I could sense that my body is slowly transforming as it . My only problem is my tummy. I don’t know how to make them flat.

The other day, my friends and I had dinner and some of them mentioned that I lost weight. They say it’s obvious that I lost weight just by looking at my face. I agree with them on that one. My face toned down. I even developed this habit of cupping my cheeks since I can feel my cheekbones and jaw.

Right now, I have 2 more capsules before I ran out of it. The person whom I bought the Slimina Diet capsule was unclear as to when they can order Slimina again. I just hope they order soon or that I can find a cheaper one.

Before I started this update, I decided to weigh in and check out where the scale was pointing.

Despite the lack of sleep the palpitations on any part of my body I’d still continue taking this diet capsule. I really envy the testimonials of those who said they lost 7lbs in 1 week and 20lbs in a month. The month is almost over and all I lost was 8lbs! I know I can do better than that and I hope I can achieve my ideal weight the soonest possible time.

June 9 – Day 19 – Weight: 140 lbs
June 10 – Day 20 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 11 – Day 21 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 12 – Day 22 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 13 – Day 23 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 14 – Day 24 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 15 – Day 25 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 16 – Day 26 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 17 – Day 27 – Weight: 139 lbs
June 18 – Day 28 – Weight: 137 lbs

Wow! I never thought it took me this long before I updated this site about my Slimina Diet. I got busy with work and I never got the chance to update you with what’s going on with my diet.

Anyway, today is my 18th day of taking the Slimina diet capsule. As far as I remember, I mentioned that I should be drinking lots and lots of water. Last week, that’s what I did. I just drank water to prevent the feeling of having something stuck in my throat. I just drank water too so that I wont’ feel hungry. There are times though that I get too lazy to stand up and eat something so in the end, I’d eat more but not too much.

Even though I was busy with work, I still found the time to eat regularly. I couldn’t even say that I was eating less food since I noticed that I’m still eating. My appetite’s still the same but my food intake has changed. Before, I could eat 2 cups of rice or more. Now, I only eat 1 cup of rice. I don’t over eat anymore. but I am not too conscious of my food intake.

But despite this daily habit, I was pleased when I went to the weighing scale the other day to check my weight.

Let me just summarize my progress for the last 18 days that I have taken the Slimina diet pills…

May 22 – Day 1 – Started taking the Slimina Diet Pill. Weight: 145lbs
May 23 – Day 2 – no change
May 24 – Day 3 – no change
May 25 – Day 4 - no change
May 26 – Day 5 - no change
May 27 – Day 6 - no change
May 28 – Day 7 - no change
May 29 – Day 8 - no change
May 39 – Day 9 - no change
May 31 – Day 10 – Weight: 142lbs – before dinner. 142.5 lbs – after dinner.
June 1 – Day 11 – Last Blog Update. Weight: 143 lbs
June 2 – Day 12 – Weight: 142 lbs
June 3 – Day 13 – no change
June 4 – Day 14 – no change
June 5 – Day 15 – no change
June 6 – Day 16 – Weight: 141 lbs
June 7 – Day 17 – Weight: 140 lbs
June 8 – Day 18 – Weight: 140 lbs

Yes! You read that right! After 18 days, I’m now 5 lbs lighter. hahaha. No kidding! Although I expected to loose more, I’d settle for that for now. Before, it was really hard for me to loose weight each time I get heavier and no matter how hard I try to control my food intake or get into diet programs, I end up gaining more. But with the Slimina Diet Pills, I think I’m on the right track and let me tell you why.

If you’ve been reading my previous updates, I’ve told you or you might have noticed that I complained about sleeping for only 2 hours since I tend to wake up immediately. This was a great advantage I’ve discovered with the diet pills since I’m a sleepyhead and I couldn’t resist my bed and sleep instead of finding the time to work. When I started drinking it, I no longer feel sleepy and I can withstand it every time I feel sleepy. I still wake up early. If I have enough rest, I wake  up after 2 – 3 hours of sleep. Rarely do I sleep for more than 6 hours. I know this is unhealthy but I needed to do this too due to the demand of my work.

I also don’t mind drinking water and peeing from time to time since I believe that the pill might be trying to dissolve all those fats and get it out of my system through urinating. Then the best part of it is that I can already control my cravings for food.

I envy other forums and sites where I read that they already lost 12-20lbs in a span of one month. I guess those guys were really not eating at all or were really controlling their food intake. As for me, I sometimes can’t resist good food so I guess I deserve not shedding off a lot due to my wrong doings. But one thing’s for sure. I’ll definitely continue to take the Slimina Diet Pills until I get to 100lbs, which was my ideal weight back when I was in college. In fact, I already ordered my second bottle so that I’d be able to receive it just in time when the other one’s consumed.

Right now, I can feel that my jeans are already loose but not quite yet. I’ll definitely know that I’ve lost a great deal of weight if I can get in my favorite jeans back when my weight was still at 130lbs. I also like to hold my shoulders now since my shoulder bones are slowly popping out.

I won’t promise I’d be updating this site regularly but I will definitely try my best. I really can’t wait to raid my sister’s wardrobe after I achieve my goal! With my food intake habit, I expect to achieve my goal in three months. I know I can do better and simply stop eating unhealthy foods. But I can’t help it.

See you guys next time!

So I slept earlier at around 8am. I woke up at 11am and then I drank water and drank the Slimina diet capsule. After 30 mins, I took my lunch which consisted of 2 spoons of rice and the left over pork and noodles from last night. Now, I am parched yet I am not standing up from where I’m seated right now since I’m too lazy to stand up.

Will update more later. I guess I’ll just have to drink that water. LOL.

Time check: 1:51pm and the scale tells me I weigh 143lbs. hahaha. I wish I have a digital weighing scale so that I won’t have problems reading my weight!

Time check: 2:04am (June 2, 2011)

I realized that I should be drinking a lot of water not only quench my thirst but also to keep me full all the time and avoid looking for food. This realization happened since I ate a lot during dinner time. Well not really a lot. But it was a lot compared to eating 2 spoons of rice from time to time. So the consisted of pork stew and fried eggplant with egg. I also ate 1 apple mango.

After dinner, I noticed my throat was starting to constrict again and my neck was being stretched again. I really had no idea what that was all about. Anyway, I wanted to sleep now which is why I am updating this entry. I hope I don’t wake up early later on.

Goodnight folks!

Note: To avoid confusion, please take note that I normally write updates in the wee hours of the morning of the next day. Like this one, I am writing now at 2:24am of June 1st; but this Slimina Diet Pills Update: Day 10 was for May 31st. hehehe Anyway, Day 10 was earlier. I think [...]

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On my last update, I mentioned I was supposed to go out. However, I just stayed at home and slept at around 12:3o am. After 2 hours, I woke up! I was supposed to wake up at around 5:30 since my friends and I made plans for this day but I woke up so early! [...]